lo que quiero

lo que quiero en una relación? Quiero que la persona que me ame lo que soy. No soy prefecto. Tengo defectos. Quiero que alguien me hacen sonreír. No quiero a alguien que me ame por lo que creo que tengo. Quiero despertar cada mañana tener a alguien a abrazar. Me despierto con una almohada vacía cada mañana. es triste. quiero una persona que va a estar allí para mí en persona. no por teléfono. Quiero a alguien que hace un esfuerzo por verme. quiero alguien para abrazar con todos los días. Quiero a alguien que se preocupa. Quiero alguien que me ame por lo que soy. Qué voy a encontrar a esa persona?lo que quiero voy a tener?que es sólo un sueño que no puedo tener!Me gusta quedarse en casa y abrazar y pasar tiempo de calidad con los demás. No me gusta realmente salir a mucho. pero lo hago salir porque yo no tengo a nadie a permanecer en con. Yo no quiero sentarme en casa en mope sobre mi vida.




Tengo invitan a la fiesta de esta noche. Yo no estoy de humor para ir de fiesta. No sé qué hacer esta noche. Im probablemente va a quedar in.2014 fue un año horrible. Es 2015 va a ser un año malo para mí.

¿por qué tengo que explicar a mi hermano

Yo me digas hermano no tengo dinero para darle. él tiene los nervios para decirme. si no tengo dinero. por qué estoy haciendo mis uñas? ¿por qué tengo que explicarle cómo voy a gastar mi dinero. mi amigo me dijo que le dijera a un amigo me lo dio como regalo. si no me acuesto con él. él me ha estado acosando por dinero. le dijo a este chico ayer. Soy grosero y no quiero escucharlo. ¿por qué debería escuchar a él. él no está haciendo lo correcto. Necesito conseguir una pedicura hecho. debatiendo si debería ir allí antes ya que mi hermano no está cerca o hacerlo más tarde esta noche. ¿por qué tengo que explicar a mi hermano lo que estoy haciendo con mi dinero. ir a buscar un trabajo lento.


qué tan temprano podría alguien de texto? hasta qué hora debe llamar a alguien? él me está volviendo loco. Quería llegar a mi coche y sólo conducir allí. enfrentarse con él cara a cara. probablemente no responderá como si no contesta su texto. ¿Estoy loco para pensar en eso!

renunciar

Es renunciar a una debilidad? sí lo es. Yo no voy a renunciar hasta que me digas lo que está mal. Me doy por vencido en las cosas realmente fáciles. cuando las cosas no salen a mi manera me doy por vencido. Me enojo muy fácil en estos días para. esto es una locura esto está sucediendo a mí. ¿por qué tengo sentimientos por él así. realmente me hace subir la causa pared que no dice nada. él realmente me vuelve loca. No traté de hoy porque estoy todavía no se siente bien. Me siento un poco mejor. el té desagradable está trabajando. Trato de no fumar hoy. Yo no lo hice toda la mañana hasta que vi a mi hermano. él me estaba haciendo hincapié.




mi amigo me dijo que dejar que la gente llegar a mí. ella dijo ignorar la gente que habla mal de mí. lo que quieren es empujar mis botones. no tienen nada mejor que hacer.

¿por qué hay todavía gente raciales en este mundo.

Salí con mi mejor amigo para el almuerzo con nuestro amigo. Hace un par de meses. entramos en este restaurante. 2 asiáticos chicas y un chico blanco. llegamos allí antes de que la pareja blanca. se sentaron a la pareja blanco primero. un amigo me dijo que este restaurante es un racial. les tomó 30 minutos para tomar nuestro pedido. la comida era buena. pero yo no volvería allí para dar ocupados si son racial. Me decía a mis amigos vamos a dejar. la manera en que nos trataron era tan evidente. mi amigo es casarse con un blanco. hay un amigo que conocemos desde hace mucho tiempo. Hace poco hizo un comentario diciéndole que una venta a cabo. ¡Uy que maldicen su salida. ella era mear.toda su familia es mezclar. asiáticos los hombres son los más grandes pendejos. dijeron los hombres podían salir de la carrera. pero las mujeres no pueden.Yo tenía un amigo que hizo ese comentario durante la cena hace mucho tiempo. Yo estaba saliendo con un chico blanco en aquel entonces. Estaba tan mear Tiré mis palillos través de la habitación con la mirada. Le dije que realice otra comentario como ese. No voy a perder el ojo próxima vez. los hombres asiáticos 3 fuera de mi grupo me salgo con todavía dicen cosas estúpidas como eso. ¿por qué tenemos que tratar con la gente estúpida en este mundo.


Estoy cansado ya y es 848am. Va a ser un largo día de hoy.

los niños se lo agradecerán más cuando u pasar tiempo con ellos.

Veo a algunos de mis amigos comprar los artículos más caros que agradaban a sus hijos. no es lo que el precio de los artículos que cuenta. no es el tamaño lo que cuenta. se hace a los niños aprecian. usted no puede comprar su amor niños. cuando se portan mal. Veo ranura de padres que hacen eso. es por eso que todos los niños de la ciudad son despojos podridos. un amigo me pidió que ayudara a comprar un juguete para mi hermano. Me dijo que no tiene por qué. ella insistió. Le pregunto cuánto es lo que quiere gastar. ella dijo que 30 dólares. Tengo el don que sólo pasar 12 dólares. ella se molestó porque me paso tan poco. Yo le dije que se lo agradecerá. no importa lo grande que el presente es. Le dije que él apreciará cuando se dé el regalo para él. dijo alguien necesita escuchar eso. usted no puede comprar el amor de sus hijos.los niños se lo agradecerán más cuando u pasar tiempo con ellos.cuanto más se gasta tiempo con ellos cuanto más se lo agradecerán.

Estoy dispuesto a ayudar

un amigo se acercó ayer. cuando la gente ve su asustaron de ella. ella tiene esa mirada media. ella entró pidiendo un par de dólares. ella abajo en su suerte. ella perdió su trabajo. Sé que siempre hay que pagar de nuevo. ella se echó a llorar yo era shock. Yo no esperaba que a partir de ella. que estaba diciendo cómo se supone que Dios protegerla y no protegerla. Le dije que tal vez el próximo año será mejor.No me importa ayudar siempre que me pagues.

Estoy pensando mucho y me duele la cabeza

mi hermano está actuando de nuevo!

Llegué temprano porque me olvidé de algo. Supongo que veo a mi estúpido hermano actuando estúpido otra vez. qué diablos está encendido. que usar el dinero que le robó a mí para comprar drogas de nuevo. por favor no estar allí cuando regrese. Voy a discutir con él de nuevo si él está allí. siempre elevar mi presión arterial para arriba.Tengo muchas cosas que hacer hoy. Yo no lo quiero en mi camino.

ahora estoy en la oficina del doctor esperando a mis turn.i tienen que hablar con mi médico acerca de hacer que esta cosa remove. Tengo un quiste y tengo que asegurarse de que es benigno. Tengo mucho miedo.No le he dicho a nadie sobre el quiste. Estoy volviendo loco. Yo debería de izquierda antes yo tengo un montón de cosas que hacer hoy.

Estoy cansado

mi clase comenzó a las 100 horas de hoy. Estoy cayendo un sueño en clase. No dormí mucho anoche. en el momento en que llegué a casa de mi amigo. Dormí dos horas, y tuvo que levantarse porque aparco el coche en un metro. Estoy en la clase no prestar atención. mis ojos se cierran.Realmente necesito una siesta hoy. mi hermano y su amigo me piden que haga un favor más tarde hoy. conducirlos a pa. Voy a tener un montón de diversión al volante alrededor pa. Voy a perderse volviendo.Yo no podía decir que no a pesar de que estoy cansado. él es mi hermano menor.su amigo no sabe cómo conducir. Tengo preocupación cuando mi hermano está en su coche.

perra estúpida

Estaba tan cabrean hoy. Yo estaba tratando de calmarme por ir a comprar mis dios niños. Termino gritando a esta señora. Me acerco a la venta dama. Le dije que me disculpe y esta perra me dijo que se callara. ella dijo que me ayude primero. Le doy la vuelta a su derecha en la tienda. Le dije a la perra fuera. ella estaba tan sorprendido porque soy asiático. que no esperaba eso. ella me consiguió tan enojado. el estúpido dama terminan callarse y alejarse. Le dije que jugar con la perra mal hoy. la zona es principalmente asiáticos y rusos. los asiáticos no dicen nada. que siempre consiguen meterse con. No soy un asiáticos que les permitan meten conmigo. la señora era un culo rudo señora ruso. no juzgar un color de piel persona y pensar que podía salirse con la suya diciendo que se callen.Tengo que calmarme y no dejar que mi enojo tome el control.fumar me calma pero me estoy fumando manera de mucho en estos días.

ella dijo que salió bien hoy.

mi amigo me llama y me dijo que sus padres salieron para el almuerzo. ella compró su novio junto. ella dijo que sus padres no hacen una escena. ella me dijo que su novio aprender a hablar cantonés. que estaba hablando con sus padres allí dialecto. ella dijo que sus padres era realmente sorprendido. le dijo a sus padres que no jóvenes más. ella les dijo que pueden estar feliz por ella. no importa lo que a nivel nacional que data. ella feliz con él. sus padres no dijeron nada. ella dijo después del almuerzo el padre les pidió que venir a cenar. Le dije que me alegro por ella ha ido bien. ella dijo que estaba muy preocupado. luego cambiar de tema preguntándome cómo va conmigo. ella dijo que vio las fotos y oyó lo que pasa. Yo le pregunte qué tiene que escuchó. que tipo de vaciló antes de decir nada. ella dijo que ella sabe que estoy enojado con nuestro amigo hombre. oyó lo que han hecho. ella me pregunta ¿Está todo bien con mi matrimonio. Le dije que es el mismo desde que se fue. nada ha cambiar, pero se puso peor. Cómo cambio el tema de inmediato. dijo ella nos dieron a conocer antes de que ella se remonta. ella dejando la próxima semana. Le dije que me encuentro con ella. Le dije que no debía preocuparse de cómo sus padres se sienten. es la forma en que ella se siente.

Qué importa quién usted fecha.

mi amigo está saliendo con este chico negro que ella asiática. ella nunca salí con su propia especie. desde que la conocí estado saliendo con chicos españoles. se casara con un hombre español. su padre se puso furioso cuando se casara con el chico español. el matrimonio no duró mucho tiempo. terminan por conseguir un divorcio después de un año. ahora ella saliendo con un chico negro y su padre es tan furioso con ella. ella estado saliendo con este chico durante el año pasado. ella no lo introduce a sus padres todavía. sus padres la vieron con él en la calle. su padre estaba gritando y gritando causar una escena. ella me llame esta mañana llorando. dijo por qué sus padres pueden estar feliz por ella. Le dije a su charla ir a su mamá. la madre entiende. tal vez la madre podría hablar con el padre. ella dijo que realmente me gusta este chico. ella realmente quiere que esto funcione. ella incluso me dijo que le preguntara a vivir con él. ella dijo que precipitarse en el primer matrimonio y ella no quiere cometer el mismo error. ella me pregunta qué importa la raza que salí. yo le dije que no. ella sabe que yo no salgo con mi propia raza tampoco. pero de alguna manera me caso con uno. ¿Fue un error. Le dije lo que hace que su corazón le dice que haga. ¡a por ello. Le dije que ella preguntando a la persona equivocada acerca de cualquier consejo de la relación. ella me dijo: si no está funcionando córtala ahora. antes de que sea demasiado tarde. Creo que ella sabe hacerlo. por qué les importa a la gente qué carrera estás saliendo. no importa la raza, la religión la que estás saliendo, siempre se llevan bien. la mayoría de mis amigos no la fecha no propia raza. ella realmente preocupado porque ella me dijo que ir a casa de sus padres esta noche para hablar con su padre. Le dije que no discutir con ellos. Yo estaba pensando a mí mismo que realmente preguntar a la persona equivocada acerca de consejos de relaciones.es no importa de qué raza datan personas.

Todavía estoy en casa de mi amigo. alguien tocó el timbre. Yo no voy a responder eso. No me molesté a asomarse por la ventana. mi amigo me texto al mismo tiempo en el que yo también lo ignoro. mi coche todavía está en el camino de entrada. lo que es un estúpido idiota.

nos dio miradas sucias

mi amigo y yo fuimos a un restaurante chino anoche a cenar. no hablamos chino que bien. ponemos el orden en Inglés. más tarde mi amigo les pregunta si tienen este té en chino. nos dieron una mirada sucia como si hablas chino ¿cómo es que no lo utilizamos. Yo no lo hablan menos que tengo que hacerlo. mi amigo no lo hablan bien. sonamos realmente horrible cuando no lo hablamos. los dos tenemos diferentes dialectos que hablan en el hogar. el principal idioma chino cantonés como todos hablan ese dialecto. ambos nos enteramos de que los amigos y ver películas chinas. que es realmente vergonzoso es por eso que no lo hablan. nuestros amigos siempre nos están corrigiendo. que siempre se burlan de la forma en que hablamos ella. mi amigo dijo que decimos las maldiciones en perfecto chino. los camareros estaban hablando de nosotros. diciendo estos abc no quiere hablar chino lo que sea. mis propias personas hacen comentarios porque nosotros no hablamos la misma.cualquiera que sea el abc se burlan de ellos a causa de que son fuertes.todo el tiempo estábamos comiendo que estaban hablando de nosotros.


Quiero que mi coche de vuelta. No me gusta este coche. no hay recogida y Odio buscando aparcamiento por la noche. que es un poco espeluznante caminar por la noche tarde. Tuve que aparcar 5 cuadras de distancia. esto es una mierda.

Does religion matter who you go out with?

I have this friend from college. I was talking to her past 3 days when I was with her. she told me she hasn't introduce her boyfriend to her parents. I ask her why? she said her parents won't approve cause he has a different religion. she been with this guy over a year now. I'm was kind of surprised. she in her 30s and she the youngest. she doesn't know what to do cause he's been asking her why haven't he met her parents. he's Catholic and she Muslim. I know her parents.Her parents are really nice. I know her father won't like the idea. he's really religious. I ask her why would he want to meet the parents unless he's really serious in the relationship. she thought about that. i  mention about a friend we know. she wouldn't go out with anyone who wasn't Muslim. but she met this guy he was Christian. I know she really like him. she wasn't allow to go hang out with the guy. Her parents was really strict. she always call me to come over to pick her up and we go meet him. I was the third wheel. she told him it was his religion that's why she can't go out with him. he really like her so much. he convert to Muslim to go out with her. they end up getting married and have a daughter now. she was laughing she remember that. it was me and her who was always stuck being the third wheel. It was not fun. We had to Chaperone a 20 year old. I ask her would she ask him to convert. she said no. It's his choice. I told her sooner or later your parents will know. She not getting any younger. I didn't mind her talking to me about religion as long they are not preaching to me. It's annoying when people start preaching I should believe in Jesus and there's no other god. I know this girl she always preaching to me back then. Telling me my religion was crap. I should believe in her religion. She was getting on my nerves. I went out got a devil doll and put it on her desk. Thats when she stop talking to me about religion. People shouldn't tell other people what to believe in. It's your own choice what to believe in. It's really interesting to learn about different religion on your own. I have pick up certain things about different religion the past few years. My friend who start this conversation told me a few months ago how a Muslim women has to be pure every month. She was explaining it to me in details. I was kind of shock. You learn new things everyday. Does religion matter who you go out with? 

I slept for 3 hrs woke up with a nightmare. Can't go back to sleep. I got to be up in 30 mins. I'm going to be tired today. My friend is picking me up at 2pm. I really hate waiting for people. I know he's going to be late. So I'm going to tell him be at my house at 1pm. He's going to show up at 2pm or later. Men are always late. 

religión

Conocí a esta señora en la oficina del doctor. ella estaba predicando a mí acerca de Dios. entonces ella me pregunta si en cristiano. Le dije que no y yo no creo. Le dije que porque pensé que iba a parar. Yo era recaudar en una religión diferente. después de que mi mamá me pase especie no creo más. No lo sé. que fue un error que ella le decía a Su pecado por no creer en dios. Le dije que no necesito creer en su religión hay otras religiones que hay. fue entonces cuando ella comenzó a gritar. no hay otra religión cristiana entonces ella seguía y seguía. Yo debería de callarse. SMH la enfermera llame a mi nombre yo estaba tan contento. después de que yo había terminado de hablar con el médico. ella me vio y me dijo que debería ir a la iglesia Yada yada yada SMH. antes de irme le dije que sólo creo en el diablo jajaja y yo corrí. Realmente no me importa lo que la gente cree. Es su elección. simplemente no me diga qué creer en. la gente me pregunta si soy ateo. Yo solía creer. Idk más.

niño o niña

Familia asiática son racistas contra las niñas. ¿por qué hacer que las niñas son casarse apagado y cambiar el apellido. los chicos mantienen su apellido y plantean los padres. en China era sólo una política de niños. si una pareja tiene una niña. acabarían tirando a salir como basura. no hay preguntas piden. a nadie se le pregunte lo que suceda.la gente va a encontrar muchos cuerpos pequeños bebés de todas partes. los policías no van a hacer nada. lo dejan solo. es triste que todavía están haciendo esto.menos mal que nací en los EE.UU.. si no estuviera yo había estado tirado en la calle. Asiáticos no les gusta las niñas que les gusta los chicos mejor.chicos que les gusta mejor. pero que el que ayudar. soy y no hay chicos ayudo. soy una chica a.

Why do people stare if you're hanging out with a different Nationality?

I went upstate shopping with my guy friend. He is a different Nationality. Where we went shopping a lot of Asians go there. The Asians was staring cause I was with a different nationality. It's really annoying.it used to happen a lot when I went out with my ex. There are alot of mix marriages these days. I have family and friends are mix. They say that happens alot. People intend to stare when you're not with your own Nationality. To me it doesn't matter what your skin colors is. As long you get along with the person.

mi hermano me está meando fuera.
cuando llego aquí veo a mi hermano molesto.que aquí forma de mierda temprano.qué molestarme?voy a buscar mi café.el tipo dijo dentro de mí.mi hermano le dijo que tengo que pagar por su desayuno cuando he llegado hasta aquí.mi hermano estúpido ni siquiera dijo nada a mí.ahora yo era mear !!¿por qué demonios está haciendo eso.Yo pago por ella y salgo todos cabrear.wtf está mal con él. Yo no estoy hecho de dinero.no le digas a la gente que voy a pagar por tu mierda. no inicie una deuda con una tienda y decirles que voy a pagar.él consiguió mi sangre hirviendo.Yo estaba gritando causa tan fuerte que estoy mear.Necesito calmarme. él me va a dar un ataque al corazón.Voy a tener una larga jornada de hoy.Yo sé que él me va a cabrear más tarde.¿por qué tengo un hermano que un dolor en el culo de mierda?

Tengo una gran noticia hoy.

tengo un msg de un amigo que aún trabajan allí. mis viejos supervisores consiguieron en problemas. Yo quería hacer la danza feliz. bueno para ellos.También me enteré de que llegaron allí exámenes anuales.que no era bueno.el gerente superior escribió en su reseña. para volver a la escuela y aprender a escribir.que debe ser realmente embarazoso.esta es la mejor noticia que me dieron desde que me han despedido.Espero que la perra sabía que iba a venir.Quiero hacer la danza feliz.

He estado tan aburrido ya que no he estado trabajando.Estoy más relajado ya que soy no más allí.no me arrepiento. tengo que gastar menos dinero.Tengo que basura o tratar de vender mi otro coche.Tengo que reducir mi fumar. le está costando mucho dinero.He estado haciendo y vendiendo cosas en el lado de algo de dinero extra.por eso porque mi hermano siempre me está pidiendo par de dólares cada día.mi hermano no sabe que tiene que trabajar para conseguir el dinero.

Why do people as these question?

I'm tiring hearing these questions
1.How long have you been here?
2.What country you came from?
3.Can you teach me math?
4.You all look alike.
5.Do you eat cat or dogs?
6.Do you know karate?
7.why do the Chinese take out people don't eat what they sell?
8. Do you only date Asian guys?
9. What kind of Chinese tea will make you lose weight?
10. What's your real name?

My answer to these questions.
1. I'm American
2. I was born here.
3. I'm not good in math. Why you ask cause I'm Asians.
4. No we don't.
5. Hell no I don't eat cat or dog. Are you fu$king crazy!
6. Maybe
7. Cause it's fast food. I really don't know.
8. No i don't date only Asian guys.
9. I recommend the tea. You will have the worst stomach ache and you being on the damn shitter all day long.
10. None of your business!!!

Why couldn't they just ask?

Today I got out of bed early. I didn't want to and didnt feel to good. I had to run errands. I went to this Chinese store to get something done. I usually don't speak Chinese cause I don't speak it well. When I got there all the lady's there was trying to firgure out if I was Chinese or not. One of them said excuse me in Chinese so I move. Then she told the other lady I do understand. They had another customer waiting. She butt in and said I'm probaly abc (American born Chinese). She said I understand but can't speak it. I was there for almost 30 mins hearing them talking about me. I'm thinking in my head you damn fob (fresh off the boat) why can't you just ask me. When it was time for me to pay. I spoke in there dialect telling them I am Chinese and I don't speak it well that's why I don't speak it. She was kind of shock. I understand 4 Chinese dialect I could speak my family dialect ok. I learn how to speak another dialect from friends and watching Chinese movies. I study another dialect when I was in school. I understand it but can't speak it. The last dialect I learn it from my friend she has her family dialect at home. Why can people just ask?

Tuve que salir de la casa. Me metí en mi coche y conduzco alrededor. Yo no podía dejar de temblar. Yo no podía creer lo que estaba sucediendo. Me encontré con un enorme bulto en mi brazo. probablemente sea mañana negro y azul. mi pierna y la rodilla está lastimando. Se siente al tirar de yo un músculo. No lo entiendo en el medio alguien va a salir lastimado.Me metí en el medio y me acaban de hacerse daño. Estoy molesto con todo el mundo.

abogado

Recibo mis papeles de mi trabajo. que quieren mi que firme el papeleo y lo devuelve. Yo llamo a mi abogado para arriba. ella me dijo que llevara a ella a antes de firmar. ¿por qué ellos me ofrecen esto? están tratando de mantenerme callado sobre este incidente?

Recibí la llamada

i sido suspendido por más de una semana. me llaman hoy. diciéndome toda esta mierda. la razón por la que me despidieron. que quieren mi que firme los papeles. ¿por qué quieren que firme? está a guardar silencio sobre el incidente? Tengo que tener a mi abogado para que lo analice antes de firmar.

esas perras

esas perras me están dando un dolor de cabeza. Estaba tan molesto ayer. Estoy tan loco que salí anoche. Bebí a muchos. Termino estrellándose en mi amigo lugar. Me desperté con un dolor de cabeza. dijo mi amigo no dejes que las perras llegar a mí.  ella dijo si sucede dejar que suceda no el estrés que.Le dije Odio la gente que actúa falsa.

Estoy muy enojado!!!!!!

Recibí una llamada hoy de uno de mi compañero de trabajo. este compañero de trabajo no funciona en mi departamento. Ella me dijo una de las perras. se está extendiendo rumores en torno a la compañía acerca de mí.  Movía de un tirón hacia fuera en el teléfono hoy. esas perras no creo que vaya a volver a mí. Estoy tan furioso hoy. el estúpido idiota que me llama la grasa. él me ha estado molestando. él que tan molesto.  cada vez que lo veo me ganas de vomitar. me hizo más furioso.
siempre diciendo cosas estúpidas.
ningún trabajo. Estoy aburrido.

Ya estoy de vuelta en la casa.

Ya estoy de vuelta en la casa. No ni siquiera diez minutos, la perra tratar de ir a través de mi bolso. omg no me gusta permanecer en esta casa. lo que si me despiden. Tengo que lidiar con esta perra durante todo el día. Voy a rasgar mi pelo Salida.

mi estúpida llamada empresa no para trabajar, sino hablar con hr. Yo estaba hablando con mi abogado antes. ella dijo no firme nada. Porque desviará mis palabras en torno a. Probablemente estoy despedido. ellos que va a utiliza las cosas en mi contra. tengo que estar mañana en calma.
mi abogado dijo que tengo un caso. Estoy tan molesto!

Los asiáticos en mi trabajo

Los asiáticos en mi trabajo deben valerse por sí mismos. se sorprendieron doy la vuelta y dijo algo. Yo no crecí con los asiáticos. Yo crecí en un barrio minoría. No dejo que nadie me empuje alrededor.mis padres me dijeron que no dejo que nadie me empuje alrededor.la gente ve que tengo un nombre asiáticos asumen Yo no nací aquí.la gente no debe asumir causar una gran cantidad de estadounidenses que han nacido aquí que provienen de diferentes culturas. los padres siguen dando allí el nombre a los niños de su país.Siempre me dieron recoger en la escuela y en el trabajo por mi nombre. Les dije que fuera.Yo nací aquí y hablo Inglés ustedes estúpidos.algunos asiáticos no dicen mierda.mi trabajo los asiáticos no digas nada en absoluto!es molesto!!!Tengo unos compañeros de trabajo que me preguntan ¿por qué yo no pasar el rato con los asiáticos. ¿Tengo que?Hago amigos con la gente me llevo bien con no importa de qué raza son. Come largo yo conseguir a lo largo de con la gente.Todavía estoy suspendido su estado 3 días ya!

He estado viendo a Abe stencil linclon graffitis por mi barrio y otras áreas.Estaba leyendo un artículo que atraparon al tipo.me dijeron que era un hombre hispano. el chico no pescaron era un hombre blanco.la gente no puede decir la diferencia entre la raza.¿hay un sentido en la cabeza de Abe Lincoln. donde quiera que voy veo la cabeza de Abe Lincoln.

racista

Llamo a mi jefe una puta racista. Yo la estaba cansado Me destacar las cosas que estaba haciendo.ella no dijo nada acerca de mis otros compañeros de trabajo.que estaban haciendo la misma cosa.Le dije la semana pasada.todo el mundo sabía que era mear fuera.Me suspendieron de nuevo Yo podría ser despedido las cosas que le dije a ella y esta otra puta. todos en el trabajo fue el shock.Le doy la vuelta hacia fuera. Realmente no me importa una mierda en estos días!!!!

I'm late for work!

I am really late for work this morning. I really don't care. I'm taking my time getting ready. I know when I get to work the bitches are going to say something. Go ahead they could bitch all they want. I want to get fired. I hate this company. One of my supervisors doesn't know the American labor law. If she tell me today I'm going to the bathroom to many times. I'm going to tell her off. I been biting my tongue with this bitch. I really wanna curse her out so bad. I can't stand her. I hate some of the people I work with. I hate this company!! I'm not leaving I want them to fire me cause I could collect. They are trying to push me out by making me Miserable! I'm waiting!!

New coworker

I have 3 new coworkers. I met 2 of them 3 weeks ago until they took my place. I met another one today. One of the new co workers. She a real bitch. She try to start with me today. She don't know me and she playing stupid games already. I put her in her place when she made a comment today. Her friend work in the same department told her don't bother me. I don't understand why recommend a friend or family to work in the same department. Her friend is another one who trying to be nosey. She try asking me what health problems do I have and what am I using to lose all the weight I have lost. I told her my weight loss is stress from this job!! I didn't tell her about my health problems. Now she going to run back and tell the supervisors. I don't give a shit anymore!!

Stupid neighbor

I park my car in the driveway last night. I didn't park it all the way in. I dont have to cause its my driveway. This morning I saw my neighbor. He ask me do I understand English? I want to scream at him wtf!! I ask him what's the problem. He still talking to me like I don't understand him. What a asshole. He ask me to move my car back further in. Why should I when the guy talks to me like a asshole. I'm not blocking anybody way. Why does he assume I don't speak English.


The stupid asshole who call me fat is annoying me. I curse him out again. So fucking annoyed today!!

Stupid co worker

Yesterday one of my old co workers was bothering me. I was so mad cause she always trying to pick on me. I said to her she a bumbaclot. She was so surprised i knew that word. I told her don't judge me by my skin color. I told her don't don't play games with me. I'm not one of those Asians girls i see her pick on in the other department. I also told her if she got something to say say it to my face not behind by back. I had enough of her stupid picking.

Work

I went over my supervisor head today. I'm so annoyed with her. I went to a higher manager. She going to find out and be piss off. I really don't care. I found out today the guy who has been bothering me got suspended for a month. Good for him. Touch me again I'm going to kick him where it hurts. I should of the first time.

Its getting really weird i didn't talk to anyone about him. I mention on this blog on sat he looks better with shorter hair. When i did see him his hair was shorter. I haven't seen him for the past two days. He probably hiding or where else would he be....

Had a hr meeting today.

I report last week about my male coworker. I told him many times don't bother me. He put his hand on me last week. Where he shouldn't i swing my hand and miss him. Security saw on camera what he had done. They pull me to the side and told me to report it. If i didn't they would have to. They call me in asking me what has happen last week. I told them i was passing through the hall and he swat me on the ass. I swing back and i miss. They ask me was that the first time he has done that. I said yes. I told him many times don't bother me but he keeps bothering me. They told me they going to look into it. It's not my fault if he gets fired. When i was done with hr. I went to speak to Security. The supervisor of Security told me they have seen him do it to the other females co workers. The other women never report him. They caught him in the act. Men are not allow to harass women at work.


I really want to find out what the hell is he mad about. Smh i know the more curious i am the more I'm going to get upset. If he didn't want me to call him again he should say so. By ignoring the phone call is rude!!!!!!!

I can't wait for the day to end

My day is really bad today. Is there a reason why I'm getting pick on. Is it my skin color? I see they only pick on my skin color. I gave her a mouthful today. I told her off. I don't give a shit if i get fired!!!! I really hate this job. I want this day to go by faster. Get me out of this hell hole.

yo no lo he visto le.te extraño ver.este chupar

There are to many bitches around

To many bitches i have to deal with. One of the other girl from another department slam the door in my face today. What a Monday!!! I really hate this job.:( Getting out soon!


I want to call him, but he hasn't given me any sign. 

Stupid hr

I'm fucking piss off today. Stupid hr doesn't help any employes. They only there to cover the company ass!! I found out today they kicking me out from my department into another department. There is also stupid bitches there to. I can't get away from them. I'm so annoyed this shit is going on. One of the contractor told me they are trying to make my life difficult so i would quit. If i quit on my own the company doesn't have to pay unemployment. If they fire me they would have to. I'm ready to quit this job!! I

I was not having a good day today!!!

I went back to work today. Annoyed i had to go back. My supervisors was picking on me again today. I told her she her off. I told her she always bothering and no one else. Constant picking on me and no one else. I said you're picking on me cause im asian and you think im not going to say anything. I told her she wrong cause i will say something. Im not like the asians people in the company. I was biting my tongue. I really wanted to curse the bitch out. Everyone at work knew i was piss off they saw it on my face. I start pissing her off by constant going to the bathroom. I'm waiting for her to say something. Im going to hr if she does and if hr doesn't help. I'm going to report it to department of labor. They can't tell you when to used the damn bathroom. If you got to go then go. Piss off all day today. Tomorrow another freaking day tomorrow. I'm been trying to look for another job. Doing something else. I got no luck yet. I hate my job with a passion!! I don't get paid alot. I been looking on a job website. Housekeepers make more then me that is so sad.

Today i went on a different route to get home. Don't want to deal with the problem i had yesterday. I should change the route i get home everyday.


I didn't see him today. What happen to him?

I hate going to pa!

I hate going to pa! People stared at you like your a alien. Grown ups and little kids. What never seen Asians before. I'm standing in line to pay for my things. This white lady try to skip me. I said to her hello wait for your turn. She said i was rude. I told her she the rude one cause she trying to skip me. She probably thought i wouldn't say anything she was wrong. I would never move to pa.

Can't fall a sleep eyes and nose hurt.i still have a fever.

Why am i thinking about him?

I had to yell at someone today!!

There is this lady I know she is very naive. She thinks all yellow skin people are Chinese. She introduces me to a lady she know. She said the lady is Chinese like me. The lady look offended cause she wasn't Chinese. She was Korean. I been telling her she can't assume all yellow skin people are Chinese. There are different people from other countries. I was piss cause she doesn't listen. Her friend look annoyed but didn't say anything. What a stupid lady!!


I want to call him! How do I know if he going to answer or not? I have no clue. I don't really know what to. I just don't have guts!!

My co workers are making fun of my name

My co workers are making fun of my name again. I'm very annoyed. I have told them many times if you can't pronounce it don't try to say it at all.  Do I gave to deal with stupid and ignorant people everyday. I'm having a bad day!!! I wanna go home and stay in bed. 

Sushi

Am I supposed to like sushi cause I'm asian. I don't like sushi. I don't like anything raw. I met a friends's friend. They were talking about having sushi. I said that's nasty. He said i should like sushi. I ask him why cause I'm Asians. He said yes. I told him I'm more American then Asians. I eat certain Asians things but if its raw I'm not touching it. I told him sushi is a Japanese food. It's not Chinese food. Not all yellow skin people are one kind. There are many different Asians. We cooked different type of food. We speak different dialect. Just because we look a like. It doesn't mean we understand each other. People got to stop judging.  

This lady ask me yesterday do I speak English

This lady came in looking around looking for something. She came up to me asking me do i understand English. Wtf  I ask her does she need any help. She ask me do i have a bathroom for her to used. I told her no. She has the nerve to call me a bitch afterward. I was going to curse her out but I didn't cause there was kids around. I was biting my tongue. But a friend of my curse her out she said the lady was rude. I have to deal with naive people all day.

I went to the birthday party last night. I didn't stay long cause I'm really tired. I found out who the selfish person was. Who plan the party. She never like me from the beginning. I hear she did it on purpose. Whatever I show up at least.

Werid I haven't seem him at all. Is he not feeling! I won't know unless I call him. I said I will try this week.

Why can't asians speak up!

I'm sitting on the train and there was these Asians teenagers getting pick on by 3 others different ethnic. They sat there and didn't do or say anything. I was getting annoyed. I open my mouth and curse them out. They were kind of surprised. Then I yelled at the Asians kids for not standing up.

Stupid lady

Stupid lady piss me off today. She assume i didn't speak English. She gave me a attitude first I gave it back to her. She has the nerve to tell me I have attitude. I told her off she the one who was picking on me first. Don't assume I don't speak English. Today is not my day. I had to walk away from her cause she was going on and on. If I didn't i would have been cursing her out. I'm so tired i need to take a day off. I need to have a personal day! I'm going to try to take a day off this week

This man told me to go back!

Yesterday I was looking for parking. This stupid guy stole my parking spot. I got out of the car and told him off. The stupid man has the nerve to tell me to go back to china. He didn't even speak English well. I was so piss off I was screaming and cursing him out. How the he know I'm from china. He doesn't. Why does everyone assume yellow skin are from china? You can't assume cause there are other Asian countries. We don't speak the same language.

Why am I up so early?

One of my new co workers

One of my new coworkers was looking for me. He didn't know it was me cause it was under my Asian name. When he found out he was laughing that it was my name. He kept laughing and ask me what kind of name is that. I told him to please stop its my official name and I don't use it at all. He didn't he kept making fun of it. He was laughing. Lucky I was leaving work. I don't have to hear it all
day.

I really don't want to go to work anymore at night.

Stupid lady

I hate my job!! They making me come in my day off. The lady from hr is picking on me cause I'm Asians. She was surprised when I called her. She thought i didn't speak English cause I have a Asians name. Waste of my time.

I'm not ashamed of my asians name

My friend ask me. Why am I changing my name? I'm not changing it I'm correcting the name and adding a English name to it. I'm not ashamed of the name. It's the way how some people pronounce it. Every since I was a little girl kids always made fun of it. Grown ups make for it now to. That's why I'm adding a English name. I'm still keeping my asians name I'm not getting rid of it. I'm finally going to get it done!

Not all yellow skin are Chinese

I was talking to this lady today. She was telling me she went to a senior party and there was a bunch of Chinese people there. I ask her how does she know they were Chinese. She said she assume they were. I told her not all yellow skin people are Chinese. She wouldn't listen to me. I told her you can't say they are Chinese you have to say Asians. There was asians people walking by. She ask me what are they. I told her I can't just tell by looking at them. You have to say Asians. If you don't know what they are they are call asians. Do I have to deal with stupid people?

The lady at the doctor office pronounce my name wrong!

I was at the doctor office today. The reception lady pronounce my name wrong. I was so upset that she try to even pronounce it. I even put my English name next to it. She didn't even bother using my English name. I think she did it purpose.The waiting room was full of patients and some were laughing about it. I was so embarrass. I really need to fix my name. I haven't had the time and its going to cost me. I don't hate my Chinese name. I like the meaning to it in Chinese. Some people like to make fun of my name when you say it in English.

Chinky

Today someone called me and my friend chinky girls. I curse that person out. My friend was mad  she started cursing too. Stupid people! Why are people still using name calling!

I over did my workout today. I'm in pain.

Twinkle

I went to lunch with friend. She bought her friends along . One if the guys call me a freaking twinkle. I was insulted again. I ask why he said I act like one. I do not act like one.

Twinkle- Yellow on the outside, white on the inside.
He said I act more white then Asians wtf

Insulted today

One of my co worker insulted me today. I had to go to hr because she made a racial remark. She ask me how much rice do I eat? Wtf cause I'm Asians she thinks I always eat rice. If I made a comment how much fried chicken do she eat. She would pull me in hr so fast. People shouldn't say stupid things like that. I wouldn't say things like that cause I know it's wrong!

Skin color

It doesn't matter what color is your skin. We are all humans!!!


Is there a reason for me to call him after he diss me. I don't know what to do.

I need a nap

I'm so tired my system is going to crash. I'm going to try to take a nap for hour. I hope I don't over sleep cause I got to get back to work. I'm working to much. I need a vacation soon.

Don't judge me by my race.

I went grocery shopping I came back to the house to drop it off. This Russian guy was blocking my driveway. I honk he didn't move I honk 2 more times. The asshole saw me. He stay in the car. I honk a couple more times. He gets out the car and he put his hand up and said in broken English what's te promblen china girl. No you don't call me. I flip out on him. I told him move your fu&king now. He was surprised I was yelling at him in foul language. Don't judge me cause I'm Asian and a girl. I will give you a piece of my mind. I been having problems with this damn driveway people in the neighborhood thinks its there personal driveway. I has one car block the driveway for 3hrs. I couldn't get in. I was driver around to look for parking no luck. When I did call 311 to complaint no cops show up to ticket the car. I block him in double park at 2am and turn the radion on full blast to wake up the neighborhood. That's when the cops show up about loud music playing. I got the car ticket and tow.

My co workers are going to be piss again tomorrow. I'm not going in again. I got doctors appointment  
I hate going to the doctors.

It really does matter!

It really does matter what color your skin is. Why I say that cause I just found out today. The new vp is younger then me. He does have a master degree and he a white boy. He looks like one of those white collar boy. This new vp is really stuck up. To me he looks down on people. He never say good morning when you see him. I always say good morning. I know they hired a lot of Asian people at the company cause they are trustworthy and hard working. Not all Asians are trustworthy. It does matter if you're not white!!!

Different dialects

Chinese people have different dialects depending on what part of china you came from. I speak a different dialect at home. It's not Cantonese or mandarin. I could speak Cantonese cause I learn how to speak it from friends and watching Chinese drama. I understand mandarin but I can't speak it. Today in front of my building my co workers from another department was talking about me. I know who they are and they know who I am but I don't speak to them. They were speaking in Cantonese saying I was skinny when I start working here. Then I blew up like a ballon. Now I'm skinny again. They were gossiping saying maybe I throw up my food that's how I lost the weight. They didn't know I understand Cantonese. They were standing really close by. I let them finish there conversation. I call them a say baht por it means bitch in Cantonese. They were kind of shock. Never judge a person. You really don't know these days who understands other languages. I work with naive people.

Boss

My racist boss got fired. Is it wrong for me to be happy. I don't think so. Woohoo!!im doing the happy dance. She didn't get fired for being a racist. Payback is a bitch!!!

You got to be white to get promoted!!

If your skin color is not white you never get promoted in the company I work for. This guy he was working there a couple years ago. He only stayed for a year. He was hire for a buiness project when he was working at the company. He's back and now he a damn vp wow. I got to say wtf. The company higher ups are mostly white. They hire a lot asians cause they are trustworthy and they work hard. Asians don't talk back. Sorry assholes/bitches I do I talk back. I know they don't like me but they know I work hard. I work with mostly females and they are petty old bitches. The damn guy is younger then me. If I stay at this place I'm going to pull all my hair out. I finally got a interview next week. Hope it goes well.

Why do people always talk about religion.

I don't like talking about religion. Why cause some people would say my religion is better. I had someone tell me I should only believe in Jesus. I ask her why she said Jesus is the only God. Oh boy I told her I only believe in my religion but if I decide to change its my choice. I had a coworker she said my religion is garbage. How could someone say that. I told her to bugoff. People could believe what they want. Don't have someone telling you what to believe in.

Discriminate

Does men Discriminate against women? Yes they do. My friend call me up and told me she had to teach a Asian guy at work. He was piss she was a Asian female. When the higher up told him to report to her. He didn't know she was a Asian female cause her last name isn't Asian. She took her husband last name. She said he pretending he knew everything. She also said he was a cocky asshole. Asian men don't like Asian female to be higher then them. Asian men doesn't like females getting payed more then men. Asian men doesn't like Asian female to go out with other race. Some men discriminate against female if they are there boss. She had to put him in his place cause he wasn't listening to her while she was teaching him. 

Racial supervisor

I'm going back to work tomorrow. I'm going have to deal with the racial supervisor. I will still have  attuitude. I really don't care. Someone told me to report it to the eeoc she harassing me and tell them the company is trying to swept things under the rug. Co workers call me up today telling me she was trying to blame me for something I was piss cause I'm not there to defend myself. She really needs a ass kicking. Should I quit? Should I wait for them to fired me? If I quit I have no money. If they fired me I could get unemployment. But I can't use them as a ref. I could always run the family business. I could start my online business. Don't know what to do. These days im thinking to much it's hurting my brain cells. To many problems coming at me. I can't fix it. Sometimes I just wanna scream!!!

What are you staring at!!

Today my brother and his friend came with me to nj to go shopping. He almost started a fight. These white people was staring at him and his friend. He was yelling at them what are you staring at. Never seen Asian people before. He started cursing. I could hear him from the other side of the store. He was piss he ask me there's no Asian in this part of nj. I told him there asians. But the white people like to stare here. Some are nice but some could be really nasty I told him. I told him some just stare and some would make nasty comments.

Asian people should stand up for themself!!

Asian at work should stand up for themself. They dont. No one wonder Asian people get pick on at my job. I have this friend she always getting pick on by supervisors and co workers. She really a nice and quiet person. She don't say anything. I told her she has to say something if you don't. They will pick on you. She so stress out at work she breaking out in a rash on her face and she getting sick.I don't put up with the racial crap. The company doesn't do anything when I reported a racial comment. I might have to take a step further and hire a lawyer. I'm so stressed out from this job. I don't care anymore if I have it or not. I'm just pissed off. No one understand how I feel to be in a situation like this!!!

God daughter

I had my god daughter with me. Everyone thought she was Spanish.  She ask me why do people think she Spanish. I told her maybe she look like one. I don't know. She was counting how many times people said she was Spanish 4 times. There was 2 people thought she was Italian. No one guess right. I had to tell them she half chinese and half white. She speak Chinese fluent. She chinese better them me.They were shock. Do not judge the book by it's cover.

This week I had to correct so many people.

This week everywhere I went. I had to correct people telling not all yellow skin are Chinese. They are Asian!! It was getting annoying I had to correct people. You can't call a Korean person Chinese they will get offended. My coworker said the Chinese lady was here. I knew she wasn't Chinese. I got mad I told her you can't say that. My client heard me and told her the same thing. There was this guy on the block he said he was playing ball with the Chinese boys. I told him they are not Chinese. His friend correct him. Telling him what they were. So he ask me what am I. I told him I'm Chinese. His friend told him I'm a getto girl who grew in the neighborhood. I got to nany nick names getto girl twinkle(yellow from the outside but white in the inside).You can't judge by the cover.

Asian&Math

Today someone said to me you should be really good in math. I hate when people say things like that. Don't think all Asians people are good in math. I told him I suck in math. This guy apologize he said he didn't mean it that way. I told him it sounded that way. I think he felt bad what he had said. I'm glad he apologize. I'm not a Asian nerd math whiz. Some Asians are really good in math. Not me! Don't judge people by there race!

Don't judge

Don't judge 

Stop saying my name wrong

I hate people who can't pronounce my name . I told you before if you can't say don't say it. Today someone said my name and added Ching Chong Ching Chong again. It's fucking annoying when they do that. I going to have to change my name.


I have to work with bitches and assholes!

We don't all look alike.

Why do people think all Asians look alike. We don't look alike. Today there was this lady she thought the Asians guy behind was my brother. Why would you think that cause his skin is yellow. What a stupid lady. She even ask the guy how do you say a word in Chinese. I told her he not chinese. I told her not all Chinese speak the same dialect. My friends we don't speak the same dialect at home. We did learn one dialect a lot of people do speak. It's better then nothing. I told her all Asians people are not Chinese!!! Remember that.

Don't call me Korean!

I don't understand people these days. There are so many different Asians people in the USA. If you don't what Asian nationally I am. Don't say that Korean girl. You can't say things like that cause if the person is Chinese they will get offen. Koreans will get offend if you tell them they are Chinese. Chinese people will get offend if you called them Japanese. The correct word is Asians.

It wasn't that bad when I went to Philly!

It wasn't that bad when I went to Philly this weekend. Maybe because I was in the city and not in the boondocks! The only bad thing happen was my friend got pick up at the bar by a black guy. A black girl came over to her and told her stop stealing black men from the sisters . A fight almost broke out. My friend was pissed. She told the girl off. There was no name calling this time.

I hate going to Pennsylvania!

My friends ask what am I doing this Friday to Saturday 2 weeks ago. I told them nothing. I hardly see  my good friends. We all have a busy scheduled. I usually meet up with them once a month to go shopping. I found out they wanna go to Pennsylvania to go shopping at the outlet. I hate go there to Pennsylvania. I always get lost and I stick out like a sore thumb. People always make comments like chink or gook. If the people don't like Asians people stop eating Asians food. It's to late for me to tell my friends I don't wanna go they book a hotel room already.

Stupid idiots

I deal with stupid idiots all day long. My coworkers and my clients. My coworkers like to make fun of my Chinese name. They know I have a English name. They do on purpose. Then they will say something stupid like Ching Chong blah blah. I try to explain to my coworkers all yellow skin people are not Chinese. You can't not call them Chinese cause they have yellow skin. You don't know what they are you have to say they are Asians. Smh